
The older I get the more I realize that my life is full of quirks. One of those quirks is in the area of shoes. Shoes are so much fun. I wish I could have a crazy trendy pair of shoes to match every outfit. Shoes in my opinion are like fun jewelry. They do not have to be comfortable, sensible or versatile because I do not plan to have them on that long! I live most of my life barefooted with a closest full of shoes.
Two weeks ago we left the house in the afternoon ran errands, ate dinner out and went to the LD Bell Homecoming game. By the time we left the game it was a little after 10 PM. Shortly after shutting the car doors for our ride home, William asked from the backseat, “Can I take my shoes off? How long have I had these shoes on anyway?” At that point I realized, wow, we have all had shoes on about 6 hours. That is extremely long for this homeschool family! I, of course, also realized the shear silliness of the situation. My kids should be able to wear shoes for more than 6 hours….or should they?
A friend of mine was sharing with me how she went to the mall the other day with friends of hers on furlough from Mozambique, Africa. The kids were all barefooted….at the mall! It seems a little strange to my germ a-phobic mind to go out in public without shoes, but for this family they were simply being true to their own levels of comfort and upbringing. I was also teasing another friend of mine last week about family members of hers that are true “free spirits”. They enjoy a more “natural” life style and are very open with their self expression of body art. The interesting thing about both of these situations is that these families are ones that are making a difference for the gospel in the areas that God has called them.
This has me thinking about my own level of transparency and my ability to be true to the person God has made me to be. I know I have a lot of conventional ideas about socially acceptable behavior, and I am ashamed to say that I sometimes struggle to let go of stereotypes and judgmental attitudes. Shoes are just as I described them…fun accessories. They themselves are an expression of style and personality. Feet…feet are an expression of the creator….and my willingness to live openly before man and boldly for God is an expression of my love for the Creator.
This morning I was once again amazed at how God is speaking to my children and teaching me through the process. I had just finished my “quiet time” with the Father when Grace joined me to journal. I asked her how her time had been going with God. She openly confessed that she was at a place where she wanted to hear from God again. She said, “God has been speaking to me again because I have been not thinking about myself, and I have been listening. I think it is going to happen in the morning because I am not dressed yet and I am talking to God with just the plain me.” You see, we have been working with Grace on not being so self-focused. She is starting to place too high a value on outward beauty and vanity. Her statement is stemming from that, but it has also challenged me to evaluate where I am in my own ability to go to God bare.
Who has God created me to be, and what am I doing with the gifts that He has given me? Am I trying to put shoes on feet that are meant to be free? Am I not able to minister to everyone in my path because I am too focused on outward convention and beauty, or am I trying to make people wear the shoes that I think they should wear?
Moses was an amazing man of God, and I am truly enjoying studying his life through Bible Study Fellowship. It is interesting to see his example of giving up all of the wealth and status of Egypt and refusing to be called the son of Pharaoh’s daughter. (Heb. 11) Am I willing to give up my "shoes"...my American mindset and amenities? I say that I am, but where will my attitude be 6 months down the road? I am also in awe of Moses' example of obedience to remove his shoes upon entering the presence of a Holy God. How reverant am I in my time spent with the Father? I confess many times I am slouching in my bed half asleep....I am also doing a lot more talking than listening!
So, today I am challenged to ask myself, what other areas am I living barefooted with a closest full of shoes? Meaning: I know in my head & heart the right thing to do, but I have not fully committed to total obedience, or in what areas am I living one way for the world and one way at home...
What am I going to do today to live a true and transparent life? What shoes need to be thrown out so that I can be ready hear from a holy God?
Not quite to the point where I can dance naked before the Lord, but going through my closet of shoes today!
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“How will they preach unless they are sent? Just as it is written, ‘How beautiful are the feet of those who bring good news of good things!’” Romans 10:15